Friday, June 06, 2008
this has been a screwed up academic year for me. I definitely won't achieve the highs of last year. firstly, my results werent tat good this year. I think in certain aspects I'm not satisfied with my results, and even feel unfairly done by. I guess though that I have to accept this and work harder in year 4, to achieve my goal. Perhaps, just perhaps, I might want to retreat into a corner and do my own stuff quietly in year 4. I do not want a repeat of this year where at times i help others at the expense of my own preparation.
(the rest has been deleted on advice that its too sensitive)
my exchange application was also rather screwed. first, i have an unpleasant encounter with someone over this. the original post was modified on advice that it was too sensitive too.
After all the application process and all, I thought it was fine and dandy, but Columbia had a nasty surprise for me. They told the deanery that they werent accepting any NUS law students this year, which is really damn screwed. And this came around end may! After a lot of talking with the deanery, I finally managed to have an option of either going to Boston for the entire year, or Boston for 1 sem and NYU for 1 sem. I am most likely going for the latter, seeing how much i wanna stay in NY, even if its for a sem. however, all these have left an unpleasant taste in my mouth. I have to resubmit my applications at this time, while everybody more or less have gotten their admissions letters already. I also already had my mind set on certain modules in Columbia that I wanted to do, and they are unique to Columbia. Although I wanted to go NY to stay initially, I think after all my research during term time, I was quite attached to Columbia. It is a little devastating not to be able to go after my expectations were raised. It is also a bit deflating in that I cant help but think that perhaps I'm not good enough for Columbia, and this perhaps tie in with my not so good year academically.
There were also quite a few problems within my CCA itself. It is sufficient to say that the troubles were a bit more than expected. My personal life was also perhaps not as stable as in year 1, though there were signs of increasing stability as time goes on.
In sum, this has been quite a bad year for me. I hope it can only get better.
And if you are still interested to know what i censored out, ask me about it.
More Fuzzy Logic @ 1:34 AM